Sara Troy's Art of Positive Living

Last year I wrote about how Murphy from Murphy’s Law was having way to much fun with me, broken ankles, pain, promises broken and turmoil’s in abundances. I realized that he left an imprint on me, a negative foot of misrepresentations and of soul disconnect. Now 3 weeks to the anniversary of the dreaded day I broke my ankle which now has 6 screws and 2 plates in it, I realize that I have been fighting an upheaval battle with my self and all that’s around me.

My thoughts would think one-way and my emotions another, and my energy totally left me. Looking back I realized that in the last 18 months my life has changed completely totally and inequitably. I was lost lonely unsure and trying to find my purpose in my life and this world of which I was so disconnected from. Then it all began to change and looking back all really fast. Can one adjust so fast to the many changes? Or do we like it slow and sure-footed?

I would not know what sure footed was, I have a tendency to always follow my instincts even when I have no idea where they are leading me to or why I am going there in the first place. I am at times envious of people who follow a particular path each day, always knowing where they are going and why. But, I have tried that way and indeed raising children needed to follow the expectations and constancies of raising kids, but I find that winging it going by my gut and intuition really suites me better and is truer to my existence.

For instance, most people would not start a business (outside of their realm) Cyclzone Technologies developing a revolutionary new Electric Motordrive System with a new partner, then fall in love, sell home (3 times fell through each time except last one) get a divorce, break ankle, receive hate messages form new loves Ex, pack up he family home of 17 years and down size by half into 2 homes one in Vancouver and one in Kirkland USA. Then having moved across the border to set up home come back here for some excess furniture only to find the border control decided that you were enemy number one because you are looking to set business up there that would create many jobs and millions in revenue. Now we wait in Vancouver for the E2 visa and in the end it was all just another visits form Mr. Murphy or was it?

I have now taken a step back from my anger anguish and constant pain and had a good look at things in answer to what happened.  I believe in the law of attraction, every wish desire and need goes up in to the Universe to be possessed for you to receive. So if so much negative is happening do I clearly not believe in my self my spirit or my soul any more? I am sending the wrong messages?

The Universe responds to what you ask of it, and although I had asked for the successful out come of the business and all that it stands for, I became despondent when things and people were not living up to the expectations of the dream. Now I realize that done in those particular ways we would have gone really wrong and all that the universe was telling me was to re think and redirect and keep my faith for the true reason and purpose behind it all.

So the skies clear, I see clearer and I am not so emotional now, my pain (my hips due to the ankle) is still there all the time, but I believe that it will improve as I myself let go of what it is I cannot or should not control. I asked to be guided and forgot to listen. I asked for help and could not see the hand before my eyes. I believed in my mission, my purpose but got to emotional and to personal about it. I started to doubt, even though I did not realize I was doing that and then that doubt crept up into the universe for Murphy to grab hold of, and twist me around into confusion and finally distrust.

So now from a page of clarity and reconnecting with my soul, I am letting go of the pain, anger, anxiousness and distrust, and reacting with a positive attitude. In forgetting to trust my spirit and intuitiveness I allowed outside influences to distort my being, I am a spiritual person who is only aligned when she is true to her spirit and soul. I went of the cosmic tracts and got lost; I am now coming back to life. It will take some time to realign, and constant words of encouragement from my heart to my soul and most defiantly many positive conversations with my head. I am not angry any more but thankful for the interruption, for now in my clarity I see that road would have been a dead end, and that all the visions and ideas that were there in the beginning were there for a reason. We had it all right but not in the right order, your basic foundations are always the strongest to build on if they are built in truth and inner honesty. Now time to breath in the sunlight and let the darkness fade into the night. And at night look to the peace of the stars and see what they are saying to you. They say fear is the most consuming thing of all and if we let it in, in any way, like doubt, anger, frustration, we let the seed of darkness take control and win.

So let yourself out, listen to your gut, it speaks the truth that you need to know, trust in yourself, for your soul when listened to will never let you down only you can do that, you and your doubts. Switch on the lights of life and stop living a living death; look for the excitement of living free with choices of redirection possibilities, and purpose. Trust in your self and in the Universe your spirit and your instincts and just walk forward leaving all behind that held you back and crippled you.

Chow Mr. Murphy, we wont be seeing each other for a long time if ever again, as my sprit lifts and my peace within me returns there is no room for YOU so GET OUT.

THE BRIGHTNESS OF THE SUNLIGHT ALWAYS CONSUMES THE CREPPYNESS OF THE DARKNESS, open your windows, open your heart, your soul and let your laughter be heard and your spirit fly free of negative doubts. You can do it, but do you want to or do you prefer the misery of destruction and inner turmoil? You decide but for peoples sake I hope that you will try to set your selves free so as to create a more cosmic peace about us all and hope for this world and future generations, for what you feel, think, and do today, reflects on all of us tomorrow.

Peace with us is peace within the world I wish this for you all.

Sara Towe of Vancouver Canada & of Kirkland USA

Take a look at Sara & Bills Business and watch the excitement grow. www.cyclzone.com

July 17 2007

As I look at the elections going on in Canada and the U.S.A, I feel that most governments are dream destroyers. You have one slinging mud at the other and you have every ones dirty laundry out in the open, that if there was any thing good to be said about any one, you end up not believing it. We are meant to place our trust in these people who take on a God like attitude when elected, and who at some point told us that they where just like us, one of the people.

How is when they come into power they develop 2 or more personalities? I am in the personality business and know that we can take on different personas with different people so as to adapt to the situation. Politicians seam to become pure liars and all that you voted for, the integrity “the I will be there for you”, “I will make your lives better” goes right out the window. Before you know what, you are paying more taxes receiving more cuts in medical, paying more for gas (petrol) foods, and just living.

I love Canada, but we seam to pay taxes to go to the loo (toilet) here. If so much money is needed and raised every moment of the day, how come the country is always so broke? Where does our money go?

Every day I hear about the environment and the NEED to find a solution. Then I hear about one company getting 100 of millions in R&D money only to sell of their business and nothing coming out of the investment our taxes have paid for.

We are developers; we have R & D COMPANY, one that with far less millions is able to bring a viable inexpensive and functioning solution for the gas prices and carbon omission problem. We have in development a “Digital Electric Motordrive System” in others words an electric motor that replaces the out dated electric motor and can replace the combustion engine. What does this mean to you the consumer? Well a car with out gas that can go as fast and as far as an combustion engine, a car that creates NO carbon residual, a car that is easy to fix and reliable to drive. A car that will give you freedom from Gas prices and the strangling hold the oil companies have on all of us.

In other industries, it is a motor that will replace old electric motors in Mills, Gas lines, out board motors, yachts, off road vehicles, motor bikes, bicycle’s scooters, cargo ships, tankers, and much more.

Why do we work were other motors have failed! Because we have reinvented the electric motor for this century and looked at it from a totally different view. It is not canned like the old motor, it does not have an issue with batteries, and it is modular which means it can be scaled up or down and is so simple to fix, you can do it.

So far we are told by our Government, go and develop it and then we give you money to develop it. They love shouting the problem it makes them look good, but when a solution comes along, unless it is by a BIG company it is ignored.

Do you want to pay less to get around, or do you want to be a slave to the oil mongers? Do you want to see no carbon from cars? Do you want to see no more old oil to dispose? Do you want to own a boat, but gas prices wont let you? So many “do you,s” even if you check one off, will you DEMAND that your government take notice of the little guy trying to make a difference, and stop looking at corn fuel, or hydrogen fuel as the answer because it is NOT.

Stand up for those trying to make a difference, talk with your MLA, try and get some answers why we are not looking at alternatives else where and why they ignore the smaller companies. Help them understand that this growth around the world will make this a better place to live in and taking away the Oil companies hold on us. We are all effected every one of us; this is your answer too.

Speak up and do some thing, before this only goes to China who wants to eliminate carbon omissions and leaves North America behind.

Check out this site. www.cyclzone.com

The future of carbon free environment is in your hands.

We think that we are in charge of our own destiny that we can choose which way we go in life, but I beg to differ. I do believe that we have a choice of rejection for a while, but that in the end, the path we have to take must be taken no matter what.

All that we need to know and where we are meant to go has been decided and is there for our given right to take and journey. Where do we go wrong? We do not listen nor pay attention to our calling in life for we are conditioned to hear other programming and follow other roads that society decides for us.

 We are born, some into adversity some luxury some in just simple love. We have no choice who are parents are, or even if they want us or not. Our choice is in how we survive of thrive in these situations is up to us. You hear all the time how people from poor yet close loving families go on to do great things. Also those who are born to violence and hatred manage through all of that to escape and make a difference in their lives and those of people around them. And some times you hear of those lucky rich people who decide to take their riches and give back to society to thank it for the graces they where given.

 No matter where to whom or how we are born, we all have to find are way in life and follow the calling of our purpose in order to make this world and our existence a better place to live in.

 A key factor in life is trust. Trust of ones self and those we align are selves to, in our chosen faith, with out trust there can be no respect and with out that comes fear, complacency and hate. Value, of life, our selves and of our fellow man the earth and all creatures no matter how big, small, ugly or beautiful is the essential respect of all things living.

 This story is of two different paths taken by two different people, who in each of their own ways traveled a path not right for them, only to find each other in the most unlikely place and to walk a walk that both were destined to walk together.

 His grand father gave Bill a blond blue-eyed Irish Canadian from Toronto a gift at the age of 6. This gift could be considered a curse for its power and responsibility was of great burden indeed. Of what this gift is we only say that it is a gift that he can see things in people that they would not acknowledge in them selves. This gift had been past down from adult to child with in the blood line for a great time, and was always carried by a man, and was in all its greatness a heavy burden to carry. 

 Bill when he was 10 years old was in a water skiing accident that in actual fact he died from, only to come back to   life to face the fact he might never walk again. Bill is of stubborn and strong willed mind, decides that this was not for him and taught him self how to walk through consciousness and seeing himself walk again. With this new strength and some wild oats to sow, Bill challenged himself into other adventures which he bares the scares and pains of today and will forever more. Was this his gift? To face death and come out the other side to challenge life once more? Or was this a lessen in survival and humility and compassion? Maybe of just simple strength of mind body and soul in order to know how far one can go and really survive life and embrace it in all its obstacles. Bill was given many gifts and one of them was tenacity and strength of character to live life in all its glory while never loosing sight of its vulnerability and its value.

 Bill was also given friends that were true to his soul and heart, but sadly and tragedy died all way before there time. But just because some one passes over does not mean that they leave you, Bill was lucky to have these friends guide and love him through all his trials and tribulations as he is open to the world of the spirit where one does not die but exits in another form to guide us share and love us in our earthly journey.

 Although Bill was not conventionally schooled, he excelled in learning, and by the age of 17 had two degrees one masters in mechanical engineering. Bill trusted the knowledge that came to him and new that some times he was just channeling the intuitive knowledge that was given to him for certain purposes. This made him and his family rich, a richness that he found based in lust and greed, and walked away from it all to discover his true value him self.

 Bill married and through the next 18 years had nine children. But alas all good intentions have a price to pay, and this one played heavenly on his marriage. He had married a beautiful 18 years old and birthed nine children in the next 16 years. They were home schooled as he very much believes in the value of ones own strengths being allowed to grow rather than a curriculum that molds you to societies view point rather than your own God given abilities. He also ran very successful businesses, but at the age of 36 retired for a while to raise his children so as not to see their lives pass him by but to celebrate whom they are in all their natural glory. This in its self is a heavy load and both of them began to see that the journey that they both set out to take had in actuality taken them on separate paths. Both strong in spirit and mind, the pull of their destinies would split them apart for each to follow their own callings. The love they each had for their children and respect for each other’s talents bought them to an understanding that life apart was healthier for the family and they parted in an understanding and blessings for each other’s journeys.

  Now enter Sara, the soul partner of Bill’s and a person who would inspire Bill to awaken his destiny and for fill his calling by an invention that would change the world of travel.

Bill had had a design for a motor in his mind for 27 years, but technology had to catch up with it and he had not had the opportunity to pursue it until Sara entered his life and awoke the desire to develop it. Bill had woken up every day for the last 10 years with one phrase in his mind, “feeding the minds that fuel our future” the true meaning of this was not totally apparent till he met Sara who’s own philosophy was to “Give back” by freeing the spirit and mind and igniting the soul of the lost spirits.

 The two of them had known each other in a casual way in a coffee bar called Gallergers in B.C Canada. Sara had bought a puppy named Kokomo Gifu, and would now have to join the smokers out side rather than sit inside as dogs where not allowed in side. Kokomo was and still is the center of attention and it did not take long for Bill and Sara to openly talk in that communitive friendly way.

 Sara was coming out of a 20-year marriage and was trying to rebuild her self and a business. Her passion was enlightenment of people’s awareness and help people understand where it is they were so they had a better understanding of where they were going. Sara a very intuitive spiritually minded soul herself, clicked with Bill, and through the years struck up a rapport that one-day would open them both up to higher possibilities.

 By year 3 Sara had joined another gentleman in a business on importing electric bikes to North America. She had just come back from Taiwan, when she bumped into Bill (at the coffee shop) He asked what she was doing, as he had not seen her for a while, and when she told him of her new adventure, he told her of his experience in bikes, which she then invited him to advice them on the product before they went ahead with the adventure. This ended up be an invitation to join the company as Bill introduced his motor idea and one could see inherent abilities the motor could lead every one to. The other partner and his bikes fell by the way side, he could not get his funding and he disappeared into the sunset. But Bill and Sara saw a great world ahead, one were each others calling would be allowed to flourish and develop into some thing for the whole world to share in and grow in.

 Now through much joy, pain sorrow and strife and tenacity, they would face the world of business. A world that has its own language and style of doing things. Both Bill and Sara are people who look for the honesty and good in people and although 95 % of the people backed the idea, they were not the ones with money. So through the mud they walked believing that the worlds need for this invention would open doors for them. They were sorely disappointed in the fear, narrow mindedness and ignorance that people of business finance have. Soon they were broke, all their private funding gone. Although frustrated and totally pissed of, they continued to push forward. They had both given up so much for this gift to the world; they could not give up now. Just a little more just a little longer, some one would show them the green light.

 Now we wait, does the world want a gift from the heaven that releases them from the chains of oil and helplessness? Do people want to breath easier and have cleaner air? They believe yes, so down to their last dollar and with the losses behind them they wait for the heavens to open with hope that the green light will soon be on.

 How far have you gone for some thing you believe in or some one? If you believe in it, you must be ready to sacrifice for it, for nothing ventured nothing gained, and if you do not know loss you can not know gain.

 We never give up nor give in for we believe in you and we believe that your quality of life is worth fighting for.

 Keep looking for us The Green Light 

I have not met many movie stars in my life, but a few have been fortunate enough to cross paths with me. Do I sound conceited? When you see what it is that I have to say perhaps not.

What draws us to these manly men or sexy women, why do we think that they are more desirable than a regular man next door? Why do we lust after them, or wish to make our own man emulate them? Why is it the regular man does not quite measure up to our sexy screen stars? Also why is it that many a woman has made a complete idiot of them selves trying to get to know and be with these stars?

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Well, it is hard to believe that it is 2004. Was it not just yesterday that everyone was waiting for the world to end at the millennium? What has changed? The war goes on, and if they have their way, could bring the end. Debt catches up, children grow, and we all get older or do we?

No, I am not complaining, just that when you reach my age and have so many changes in your life, you notice things differently. I have this stigma of a larger number attached to my back, I am not John Travolta and Oprah, some turning 50 this year won’t be celebrated quite in the same way. I have so much that I want to do, but, (there’s is always a but,) I have responsibilities, like children, business, pets etc and a younger mind in an older body.

I have decided to try and date again. Yes, I finally separated, and thank God on very friendly terms. We are very good friends and care about each other, but now that we are separated spouses we are better of without each other. There is only one problem with dating, and that is finding someone to date. I remember in the seventies, that is was so much easier to meet people; everyone was so much more open. Now people have become sceptical and mistrusting, I understand why, but it is sad.

When I go for a walk with my dog Kokomo, who is now 2 years old, I find that doggie walkers always nod and smile. When we go for our coffee and treat (which she shares of cause) I find that the smokers are quite chatty but alas being asthmatic, I cannot date a smoker. My work is helping people with their transient lives, so no meeting anyone there; they are not ready for me. I am not a committee person, so that’s out. Yes, I have looked at the E-DATING and so far cannot say I am impressed. So I have decided on a CRUISE.

I decided that I have to put myself in the way of people, not just men, but also a new type of people to socialise with and branch out with. It is very easy to stay in one’s rut when there is none to grab your waving hand to pull you out. So enough waiting time to climb out. Time to move on. Need a drastic change.

I have decided on a cruise to Alaska, anyone been? Would love some feedback. I was going on a cruise for my age plus (49 and trying to hold on) and looking for interesting people who love life and conversation. I have not danced in so long I need to remember how, I have not been at a table with fun light hearted people in so long I have forgotten what it is like. The joy of fun people who like a lively talk about life living and existence would be great.

One thing I would be nervous about is meeting a new man. Does flirting come back? And do they know the difference between flirting and sexual advances? I am not ready to be chased around the ship just yet, he may get frown overboard. Ladies, is there anything worse while dating, than having a drawing horny creep hanging all over you? I must say I do like a man with humour, consideration and a zest for life and a respect for the living. They do still exist, don’t they?

So I am booked, Alaska here I come. On May 5^th I will embark on an adventure that I HOPE WILL ENLIGHTEN MY LIFE AND CREATE NEW FRIENDS. I am on the Holland lines “The Voleendon” which I understand is a new ship (built 2000) I will have a cabin to myself, (at great cost to go single) but worth it. I have already purchased one nice evening outfit, this suit reminds me of my mum when she did cruises, a raw silk 2 piece in champagne colour with gold beaded colour. She would approve. Clothes wise I am ready. I am also getting my eyes labored before I go, so as not to look like my grandma anymore. I am tweaking my poor old bod and tuning my mind. Ready I will be.

I am glad that it is not a hot cruise, I prefer a spring cruise, as I am not a swim bunny. I look forward to reading on deck in the cool spring breeze and then meeting people over lunch, dinner, and coffees. We travel up the inside of the coast so I will see spectacular sights, and I will visit the glaciers in all its glory. It will be so nice not to have to worry if anyone else with me is happy, just myself to worry about. First time in 23.5 years, so I will relish in my self-centeredness.

I believe that at mealtime they seat you with your own age group, mine 40-59. This is good as I do not want to be with to young or too old, keep it within same time experience, so as to have more in common. There are 3 restaurants on this ship, each different in size and style. So I can move around a bit and meet new and interesting people. I do hope that they have a juice bar, as I love having fresh juice every day. I also would like a smooth massage to ease out all the getting ready to go on a cruise knots. A swim a day for exercise and walks around the decks (unfortunately without my Kokomo (Border Collie) should all be very pleasant.

Just being there with opportunities to meet new people and to use my time for myself, is very exciting. 23 years of putting others first, as us wives and mothers do, well now it’s, (if even for only one week,) time for moi.

When I was young and single, I travelled a lot. Twenty-two country’s in all. I went from country to country, met many an interesting person, and experienced many wonders. Just to have a glimpse into that again even for a week is great. Though what is very odd is that when I try and think like a single woman again, I find my self-feeling as if I am in my 20’s. I look at men and see then, as I would have then. Very disconcerting. But alas as I move forward, life will remind me of my age and my reality.

So many think that when you become single again, that you automatically want to get out there and grab another man. Or that you are sex starved and cannot handle being alone. Well, the truth of the matter is, that you feel a relief being on your own, and sex oh what a bother, you need a man for that! (Some women don’t) and as for grabbing another man just for the sake of it, no way thank you. I like my own company, but I would like to share myself and family/friends with someone who has the same interest and values and above all treats me with respect. When I meet that person, I would be glad to have him as a partner. It is true that sometimes life is lonely, but to fill it just for the sake of it is not worth the pain or trouble. Read a good book and lunch with good friends.

So I await my destiny and put myself out there in the big picture, and trust in my fate to unfold and my opportunity to come my way, as I believe that all the signs are pointing to this cruise right now. So trust I will and will see how it changes my life.

You never know I could be later this year celebrating my 50^th birthday in style, but what is for sure I will be turning the new 40, come what may, so here’s hoping that it will be a great one, and the effects of this cruise will be a happy and lasting one too.

 Make wonderful dreams come true.

Sara Towe. aka Troy

2004

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